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Oh hey there :)

Well, I am currently undergoing the infamous AS examinations. I already sat for one paper, 7 papers to go, and I thought time is supposed to pass by swiftly? Trust me, this is anything but swift, I can’t stand the pressure already adoi.

My first paper was really crappy and yes I am worried lah, but then at this point I figured that I have given what I could (alright, maybe I could have given it a bit more) and what’s done is done so there is no point in cycling around that matter. That does not sound like me lol. Or does it? Okay whatever it is I am determined to do better for the other two chemistry papers that I have left. It is okay that I sort of screwed up the practical paper heh.

And I am sitting for physics structured question paper tomorrow huuuu takut! My lecturer did not exactly give any tips, and everyone knows that physics requires a lot of knowledge in application, so yeah.

It doesn’t help that I keep on falling sick and feeling sickly too. Sometimes I wonder if there is anything wrong with me but every time I visit the doctor it’s always the same old flu. Well I thought that if things don’t get better soon I should have a thorough check up tapi takutlah, what if there really is something wrong with me. Taknakkkkk! Hmm.

Anyway, I went to Kakak’s wedding yesterday and despite feeling sick at first I managed to have some fun. Initially I wanted to attend the wedding because I wanted to see those cousins that I haven’t met in the longest time, but as usual, things don’t happen when you want them to happen most sigh. Instead of the usual “young generation table hoohaa”, my siblings and I were seated with an uncle of ours and an atuk sedara with their respective wives. Hence, all the clichéd conversations and fake laughs every once in a while. Okay fine, I did not fake every laugh tapi banyak jugakla kot haha. You know how things are with the elders, their jokes are of high corporate standard obviously and most of the time, I just don’t get the amusement heh forgive me for being blunt. And just to note, i wore a completely off theme outfit (black & white instead of yellow? erk) because i didn't plan on attending at first due to the examinations, sorry!

Butbutbut, I did get to see Sazali, my god I haven’t seen him in eons that I didn’t recognize him at all at first. I was like, “abang who’s that eh he looks like Sazali tapi I don’t think he’s Sazali, because they look kind of similar but different”. Okay I thought he looked older than he is supposed to la, that’s why I had doubts that he was Sazali. I could have sworn that I saw grey hairs but apparently that was just the reflection of the lights. But I don’t feel super bad or anything because he didn’t remember my name haih, he remembered my brother’s and sister’s though fineeeeeeee!

And there was also this one really adorable girl named Zahra, eee she is so adorable I couldn’t stand it! I have pictures of her but malas la nak upload, I’ll upload them later, she’s supposed to be my niece or something like that. But she is so adorable macam nak kidnap bawak balik hehe :)

Alrighty then. I supposed I should stop since I have physics to revise still. Please pray for me if you’re reading this, I need all the help I can get.

Taaaaaa!