knowing i'd be better off instead.

"ianya satu keajaiban yang saya belum menangis bergolek-golek di atas lantai."

pressure's up high and i wish i could cut it with a knife.

but of course i can't. 

baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.

this one is for the soul.

if there is one thing that can make me as happy as writing or baking, it would be curling up in bed with a cup of hot cocoa (or green tea, haha) and a good book. 

yes, i love to read, more than a lot of other things under the sun. i used to be able to spare a lot of time for reading back when i was in school but these days it seems so hard to even spend an hour on it. 

too bad eh? i really can't wait for the exam commotion (haha, commotion pls) to be over so that i can relive those happy ulat buku days.

i've compiled a list of books that i planned to read, hopefully i will be able to cross off most of them by the end of the year :)

the booklist;

1. breakfast at tiffany's - truman capote
2. the wind in the willows - kenneth grahame
3. the bell jar - sylvia plath
4. to kill a mockingbird - harper lee
5. olivia - dorothy strachey
6. the adventures of huckleberry finn - mark twain
7. jane eyre - charlotte bronte
8. nights in rodanthe - nicholas sparks
9. the lucky one - nicholas sparks
10. the time traveler's wife - audrey niffenegger
11. handbags and gladrags - sally worboyes
12. the folklore of discworld - terry pratchett & jacqueline simpson
13. making money - terry pratchet
14. the complete work of jane austen - this, i can't wait! i saw the edition in kinokuniya a few weeks back and i am going to make sure that yours truly will own a copy sooon :)

i am also planning to enter the mph search for malaysian writers, saw this banner at dira's blog. (okay i'll link that later haha, buta it, sorry) and i already have the storyline in my head.

hopefully, by doing that, i will get to retrieve a piece of my old self :)

can't wait to start writing! 

yeah okay

rasa mcm bodoh.

& immature.

okay bye.

two thousand four.

I want the things that I had before 

Like a Star Wars poster on my bedroom door 

I wish I could count to ten 

& make everything be wonderful again. 

university application is being a bitch.

& everything is all over the place.

i'm seriously screwed up lah.

i miss high school, so so so so bad.

sedihnya :(

because i'm fragile.

i guess i haven't been posting a real post in a while. nothing much worth of a real post has happened either, haha. 

raya is already about halfway over, i didn't do much of beraya-ing anyway. visited a few, okay, very, very few relatives and took some pictures here and there, but that's about it. collection of duit raya isn't good either, since i didn't do much visiting. but nevermind that, who knows, raya in the states might be a lot more fun than i thought (okay praying hard).

aeisyah and chubs are already back in egypt. chubs flew back on the 6th while aeisyah left last saturday. rindu korang.

i got the chance to celebrate aeisyah's birthday with her (& idzham) on the 8th. we celebrated my awesome fantabulous friend's legal age birthday at the apartment. she sure got a lot of 'presents' this year, kan sya? well darling, i'm happy for you :) be good and take care of yourself in the land of pyramids. jgn lupa pray for me!

i have AS coming in less than 10 days.

&

i should be leaving in 10 months.

note that i said should though okay.

please pray for me, thank you.

now, i have to go back to being a nerd.

toodles!

 

buckle up behind.

1. Name one person who made you laugh last night?
Aeisyah. 

2. What were you doing at 0800?
Sleeeeping and turning off the alarm for the gzillionth time.

3. What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
Showering.

4. What happened to you in 2006?
SPM, graduated from secondary school.

5. What was the last thing you said out loud?
Oh eela tido?

6. What color is your hairbrush?
I have a lot of them, so um, red, wood colour?, blue, purple entah ape lagi.

7. What was the last thing you paid for?
Toll fare haha.

8. What’s the weather like today?
Wet & cold. not good for my lungs haha.

9. What’s the best ice-cream flavor?
Something with caramel, definitely :)

10. What excites you?
Whatever it is that makes me happy. haha taktau?

11. Do you want to cut your hair?
Not really.

12. Are you over the age of 25?
Do i look 25? *snorts* haha nope, i'm not even legal yet.

13. Do you talk a lot?
When i feel like it, yes.

14. Do you watch the O.C ?
A little.

15. Do you know anyone named Steven?
No.

16. Are you a jealous person?
That depends? I don't really know myself.

17. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter ‘ A ‘?
Aeisyah.

18. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter ‘ K ‘?
nak Kashfi jugakla. hehe.

19. Who’s the first person on your received call list?
Izyan.

20. What does the last text message your received say?
Yan's home address.

21. What was the last thing you ate?
Either egg tart or biskut raya. 

22. Will you get married in the future?
God willing :)

23. What’s the best movie you’ve seen in the past 2 weeks?
I haven't been watching any. Okay i did, but it wasn't the best so it doesn't count la okay?

24. Is there anyone you like right now?
Define like. haha okay that is so chuck. poyo gile amy. okay. no, there isn't anyone that i like right now.

okay, i feel abnormal. haha.

25. Are you currently depressed?
hehehehehe.

26. Anyone ever said you resemble a celebrity?
Yes.

27. What’s your main ringtone on your phone?
There is - boxcar racer.

28. What should you be doing right now?
Studying baby!

29. Why did you answer and post this?
because Aeisyah tagged me, & i miss her loadsssss :(

30. Tag 5 people who would do this survey
Yan, Lau, Syamil.whomever else who wants to do it.

Good day then, peeeps!

hey, i miss you.

well, it's just a thought.

just a thought.