it's all about the wordplay.

JUMP!
i love this.

it was awfully hot today i couldn't stand it! plus the right of side of my body was and still is in a horrible condition, it's like, sakit everywhere pfft. was supposed to have a meeting with datin lily today, but she had to attend her cousin's funeral; who apparently, is also uzair's relative, -wide-eyed- it's such a small world, no? so after much bebelan on how we all woke up relatively early today for the meeting & whatnot, linda dan uz & i went to mkn at syed abu smwhere near atria. asked dan to send me to sbg parade & then mama came to pick me up not long after. fell asleep while was watching tv because the headache was simply unbearable.
miahaha. so okay i've compiled the pictures from the pd trip on aidiladha, there were so many, like literally so many that it's almost too much, so i picked a few faves :)
do scroll down & tgk ok?

these two were taken in the car, otw to pd.
muka muka baru bgn tidur haha.

our accomodation.
top picture; desa lagoon
bottom; guoman (the much better one haha)

this was all that we did, really!
we had the cameras in our hands at all times.
imagine the number of pictures i have in my lappy.

left; with ayah & mama
right; posing with the sibs mwaha lame kan?
& if u notice, we were all wearing grays & blacks. unplanned, i swear!

the first morning.
they were building a sandcastle. i was menyibuking.

our flippies!

colours!
both pictures were taken at teluk kemang.

bought a few hawaiian shorts here.

during breakfast, this was a candid i think.

almost sunset. i love this one loads (:

sunset yeahh!

with the family.

pd was pretty boring since we go there like, almost every year. it's almost dead at night, i wanted to jump off a building out of boredom, which of course didn't occur, since i'm pretty sane still eventhough i may get seriously overboard at times, anyway, my point is, it was that boring. haha. but we needed a break, so it was okay. at least we managed to snap some great pictures heehee.

jo, let's go to bandung next year okay? hehe. am praying real hard.
& btw,
2007 is ending in less than 2 hours!
hope it was a great ride for all of you :)

paintastic!

okay, first off, this post is waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay long overdue. but i guess it is better to be late than never. see, the mcs went to subang for paintball a few weeks back & am posting up the photos now.

that's team #1.
from left; yan amy fiza dan azree faiz.
cherap was there for no apparent reason.

yan & ithe girls

& again, chen was there for no apparent reason as well.
mencapaping was the thing of the day i guess haha.

a few of them guys

the markers. oh yeahhhhhhhh :Dthe girls, again. this time wth ms mel.

the group pictureeeeee.
miahaa i look so gedik pffft.

& the forever lame.
this was a candid.

the trip was pretty awesome. i was shot quite a number of times, once, four times in a row by jaz (or so he claims). there were some misunderstandings at first about the payment & whatnot, but all of us had tonnes of fun, so i was satisfied. can't wait for another paintball outing hehe.

words.

i think my blog looks very very unorganised. hence the new layout. heheh. but this layout should be temporary, i'm going to look for a nicer one. that is, unless my laziness gets the better of me. & am trying not to put too many smileys as they make my blog looks unorganised. gagaga.
it's aidiladha alrdy! god, time is passing by so fast. cik, ayah zi & them cousins came over for a visit just a few hours back to celebrate. tok we, ayah di, ayah li & his wife were supposed to come too, but a few things happened so it was just the usual cik's family & mine at the gathering. not so much of a gathering pun, we do it all the time anyway.
mama woke me up super duper early today, i could have sworn that i wanted to cry right there & then hahah i feel like such a brat now. she wanted me & eela to accompany her to the pasar, which i haven't been to since ages. it kind of sucked that abang was not home since he was the one who would usually accompany mom, you know, to carry the heavy stuffs & what not. saw a lot of old men at the pasar today, & i think it is somewhat adorable lah, old, men, shopping for groceries at the local market. quite a combination, no? the sight of all these old men reminded me of my late grandfather, hmm. i miss him.
ohh, i miss a lot of things now, i think. hahah, godd am so friggin emotional. i should try & change that hahah. i should put "less nostalgic moments" as one of my new year's resolutions haha. & oooh, a better looking blog too.
i am leaving for pd tomorrow with the fam for a short vacation. about time eh? i desperately need one. it's okay that it's only pd i guess, it's still a break, so yeah, i don't mind (:
butbutbuttttt, i still want to go to sunway lagoon though heheh.
well, alright then, am already sleepy & plus i have to wake up early tomorrow. another early day! i alrdy have the paintball photos & will post them later, promise! til then, taaaa :D

am missing yous.

oh well, the long awaited holiday is finally here! actually it has started quite a while ago, which was about, well, probably 1300 hrs on monday. the hols started off awesome actually. had a makan-makan with themm housemates, arfah, uzair dan & faiz on monday night before we played game of lifee (well, i lost, but it's okay bcs dan was in the last place, not me :D) & went for paintball with mcs on tuesday. i had a blast although i was given souvenirs in the form of bruises, mostly courtesy of jazli (well he shot me 4 times in a row, i was hurt, badly okay hahah). simply put, "paintball was paintastic" (quote faiz & hadi) hahah. wednesday was spent with mommy dearest & lil sis. went to curve because mama wanted to watch beowulf & it's rare for mama to actually want to watch a movie. so i went with ((: the movie was okay, well jolie's body was smoking hooot, enough said. i really loved the part where beowulf told his wife to remember him as a man, vulnerable & flawed. if all men realise that they are all flawed & smwhat vulnerable, the world would be a better place heehee :P
didn't do much today since i woke up pretty late well actually not that late. it was only almost 10 kot? borak-borak with mama & lil sis after brekkie as usual, played mama's foc hairdresser, went out for lunch, went to the mall for a whileee, & then went back. ooooh, & i registered at metro today, the woman was like, oh you just turned 17? but yr badan besar tak macam 17. i was like -__________- i mean like, hey i know i'm plump (not fat, just plump hahaha oh amy puhleeeeeez) butttt god, lady pleasela wey? hahaha. you're making me feel old, & i hate being body concious (i love to eat, obviously, food is my life). & i have to go to this ceramah tomorrow at 9. that means that i have to wake up early tomorrow.
i'll probably put up some pictures laterr, & i promise i'll blog more often this holiday (((:
until then, tooodleedooo!

hey jude.

i hate study freaks. seriously, they piss me off. i mean like hey, who would want classes on saturdays? tolong la weyh, i'm sorry that you have nothing else better to do than menghadap buku 24/7 but i have a life, and so does everyone else. it's bad enough that you look super horny all the time, but god, don't you realise that you so DO NOT fit the part? honestly, dude, look in the mirror and tolongla tolongla study your reflection okay? eh grr. i don't get these smart people sometimes. i'd rather be just average & likeable (haha, funny word) rather than being super smart & a total annoyance to everyone else.
hahah. i don't know why i am jotting down all these things, but i figured since no one reads this blog (with an exception or two, heh) it is okay to bitch a bit every now & then. well, don't get me wrong. i don't like to talk trash about people, & i would avoid it if i could (really!) but then, i don't want to be a hypocrite either. & i do love college, & i love my friends, but there are certain people that annoy me to bleeding death. i'm not going to be dropping names here, but oh god, sometimes i feel like kicking them straight in their faces. help meeeeeeee pls!
ooooooh. yeah okay, let's talk about something else. alrighty then, ayah decided that we should all clean up the storage area downstairs, & so we did. mama cut out all the recipes from her old magazines for me before throwing them away, & told me that she will file them up. for my convenience when i go abroad. haha.
& i watched across the universe on friday with yan cheryl dan chen & nadiah. the movie didn't meet my expectations really, some of the scenes were just way toooooo weird, but i did love the songs (dan was singing along throughout the movie -_-) anyhow. & jude looked hot too. hahah.
alright now i'm just lazy to type anything. i have a mechanics test on wednesday & i haven't prepared, at all. haven't been studying much these days. i want holidaysssss! please please please kdu i want holidayssss, with strawberries on top?
cheerios then, see you in the next post!

albab signs.

alohaaaa! well okay this is going to be a shortshortshort post (due to my laziness thankyouverymuchh teehee). this is what i did tonight:

it says amy's chimney (:

yan's!

farah's! love the word flotilla teehee. cool eh?

ours :D

my super lame & geeky smile

i couldn't stop eating, so the whole house had supper about half hour ago. had paratha with mushroom soup. it reminded me of the chicken & mushroom pie at dome. i miss dome awhh.
& today was all good :) i'm loving the fact that a**f is everywhere hahah. ewh gile gatal. hahah.
butbutbutbut,
the malaysian studies final exam is tomorrow & i've only read 2 sets out of 5 (or is it 6? i have no idea) of notes that mr al gave out. linda said the exam is easy. well, it better be. i so do not have the will to repeat the subject. can't wait for it to be over, so that i could say sayonara to history forever heehee.
alrightttt, going off now. will update soooon (or soon enough). taaaaaaaaaaaa!

who's to say?

black & yellow helllooooo! well i am now seventeen :D & a day old. heheh. alright then, on to the stories of my first day of my 17th year.

there isn't much to tell though. at 12 midnight i was woken up (yeah i accidentally fell asleep) by the infamous birthday song, with a quarter of caramel cream cheesecake (i think that is what it is called), 2 photo collages, & an enormous birthday card. the cake was great. it really was.

& then came in the messages, ims & phone calls :D

went for lunch during the daylight with dyra & atira. was a whole of fun, too bad joyce could not join us, she went to visit her mom in sungkai. but that's okay babe, i know you love me still :P

went to tgif for dinner with the family later on, wanted big apple so very badly, but the queue was super long, so decided to come again some other time. oh well.

all in all, it was a good birthday. it really was. & i just thought that maybe i'd do a little something for those who made it memorable for me, please do scroll down & read on heehee.

mama & eela, i know both of you tried so hard to make me the happiest girl on planet earth & i really appreciate that. yes, i can be a total pain in the ass but know that i love both of you so very much.

abang, thanks for the collage (even though you decided to put that particular oh-so-gedik photo of me). i love it. oh & thanks for the shoes too, you've been a great brother, i think you know that i love you to bits. gemok forever!

ayah, thanks for the hugs. & for the voucher too. i love you.

dyra & jo. thank you thank you thank you for everything. i don't know what i'd do without you guys. dyra, i love the present sangat! hehe. you guys are like the sisters that i never had, sayang korang sangat sangat sangat.

aeisyah & chubby, my egyptian yayas, thank you for the wishes loves. am missing you guys & our old days like crazy. wish you guys were here, perhaps next year ey? Xs & Os to both of you.

atira, thank you for celebrating my birthday with me. love the card, friends forever (:

yan, linda, ash, yien, rachel, farah & lau, thanks for the surprise. i really loved it, thank you for listening too heheh. i love all of you a whole bunch. JUMP!

& to those who has taken the time to wish me, thank you so very much, i really appreciate it. i'd shine so bright if i was a star (yvaine!), & that is all because of all of you. you guys really made my day ((:

& jo, i owe a huge bit of it to you. you should know why. heheh.

& also, not to forget,

to other people whose birthdays fall on the same day as mine,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

look behind the clouds, you will always find the stars.

& you can choose to be happy.

thanks to those who reminded me of that (((:

of nasi himpit & lontong

oooh hello! well i just got a laptop, so now i'm only waiting for the connection in pelangi, then i can blog, blog, blog! (that is, if i rajin lah kan, i am, afterall, the forever lazy, in joyce's language it's -_-) i have motion city soundtrack playing on purevol right now, i love them a whole lot (((((: so yeah.
okay haven't blogged for a while, as usual, due to my laziness -_- i wish i could be rajin-er, but er, macam will never happen je, so hmmmmph. i have a lot to tell though, so read on okay.
alright then, let's start off with raya. raya was um, okay i guess. could have been better but hmm, change changes everything, right? so, i suppose it's time to be a big girl & readjust already. though, i'm quite proud of myself because i actually tried to make the best of it (: yeays for me. i came back only on the thursday before raya, hence i missed out on most of the raya preparations, didn't bake any cookies or cakes, nor did i help choosing abang & ayah's baju melayus like i usually did. but, but, but, i did help cook the usual raya dishes, so yeah, at least that was something. cik & family came over in the morning of first raya, which boosted my mood, i love my cousins (: they stayed until about noon & headed off to penang afterwards. was supposed to go with them but ayah said no, so no was it. later on, we went to ayah nan's place in mantin & had a lot of raya food. met my other bahagian of cousins (i have like, sgt byk cousins okay), and found out that amir actually goes to uitm melaka. i was like, oh he goes there? i didn't know that -_-. so hmm, decided that i should get to know my cousins more (but then i don't know how too, which is like, triple -_-) i have zero communication skills, which is sad :(
visited ayah's side of the family on second raya, which was uhm, quite okay (hey, i did try to make the best out of it okay). saw a lot of rempits beraya-ing at one of my atuk sepupu's (or whateverla, he's my grandmother's brother) house. abang & i were like wth? (well, we have a huge something against rempits, excuse us if it bothers you somehow). apparently they are one of our aunt's (or, again, whoever she is) friends. so hmm we met nek lang, tok anoh, nek ram, i can only name a few bcs i don't quite remember heh. took pictures of brinjals growing out of the tree, hahah, jakun gile all those people there must have thought that eela & i are very blonde -_- spoiled city brats yada yada yeah okay whatever.
went to putrajaya on syawal third, because basically, there was nothing better to do. went on the cruise and walked around alamanda after that. did a lot of jumping though. abang had this crazy idea of snapping pictures of us jumping around putrajaya, so yeah, there i was, jumping in my clogs all around putrajaya. people were looking at us as if we were some crazy maniacs, but hahah, i didn't care much because i was having fun (: mama planned to spend the night in bagan lalang earlier, but she had a change of mind (which was dissapointing at first, because i really, really wanted to do something instead of duduk rumah because hey, IT'S RAYA). however, cik & family came over after penang & spent the night at our house. it was cool, we watched step up together in the tv room, & like i said, i lv them cousins. heehee.
i spent the rest of raya hols visiting meeting friends & attending open houses.
dumdumdum, college, then came the saturday of the week after, which was when my open house was held. invited a lot of people & was actually really hoping that my matriks friends would actually balik shah alam but hmmph they had to study for their finals & stuff so hmmph ok. maybe next time, no? most of those who came are my college friends & only a small portion were my schoolmates. but i think overall it was pretty cool, managed to catch up with those whom i haven't seen for so long. or at least i think so heheh.
well, that's raya, or pretty much most of it. it wasn't much of anything. but hmm it's okay i guess.

change changes everything & i have to justify myself. i know that now.
& afterall, it's about time i become a big girl (:

it all comes right down to you.

the whole point of starting this blog was, for me to put down my thought in a more organised way, i suppose. so i guess complicated thoughts should count too. afterall, it's not like anybody ever read this blog anyway, so it's okay to spill them here i think.
you know, sometimes i wonder whether "i'm fine" is some sort of an automatic reply to "how are you?" because, how else should we respond right? couldn't possibly tell a stranger that your head is in the biggest mess period. right? unless a very, very close friend asks you of this, then it's up to you whether or not to break down and cry. because that's what friends do for you. and that's what you do for your friends too.
but it's sort of different when the friends that you confide in are not there to see what's going on with your life. don't get me wrong, i love my college friends, i love them a whole lot even. but i have only known them for a mere 3 months or so, and god knows how hard it is for me to confide in people. so, it's really kind of weird knowing that i have to go through kdu without dyra & jo. i have known them since forever, & i can tell them practically everything. every string of thoughts, every root of a problem, every broken piece of my life. everything. & i miss that really. sure, they're only a phone call away, but then we have different schedules & such. well, it's just different, you know?
& i wonder why i'm typing this right now. all of the sudden i feel like i've been taking things for granted. like how i'm supposed to be thankful that my life isn't bad at all compared to those people facing the war & stuff. & the fact that i get to eat relatively good food, wear relatively good clothings & live in a relatively peaceful country. yes, i get that, alright? i'm lucky. & i know i am. i really do, okay?
but sometimes i can't help but feel like there is an enormous void inside me. enormous okay? maybe it's because of my family's current situation. or maybe i'm just mengada-ngada. or perhaps this has something to do with the faridmyra thing, & how much i loathe what myra is doing. perhaps this has something to do with my ridiculous exam results. or the fact that. hmm. entah.

maybe. its just hormones?
well i have no idea.

it's called epitome.

alohaaa! oh well, as usual, this post will start with me saying i haven't updated for a while, been busy, been lazy yadayada, you know the drill. feel like typing tonight, so yeah, I'M TYPING now jooo & you're yeay-ing heheh. anyways, i was tagged like eons ago, it's something about perfect lover or some sort *grins*. so here goessss (:

Rules

1. The tag victim has to come up with 8 different points about his/her perfect lover.
2. Have to mention the gender of his/her perfect lover.
3. Tag 8 other victims to join this game and leave a comment on their blog.
4. If you are tagged the second time, there is NO need to do this again.
5. Lastly, and most importantly, HAVE FUN DOING IT.

gender: male pffffft.

#1 down to earth
alright, i like simple guys lah alright. someone who doesn't expose himself much, but is simply laid back & easygoing. down to earth people are so much fun to be with (:

#2 carrot choppers & pumpkin hole makers (ahaha, sounds so grammatically wrong)
i love guys that can cook period. if he can make me eat orange veges then he must be good, real good :D

#3 not your average hey let's go to the movies kind of person; no offense.
okay, i prefer not going to shopping malls & the movies for dates. it's simply, i don't know, dull? what do we do anyway, walk & talk with pdas during the intervals? pfft. i'm not asking for someone who'd take me to 5 star hotels for dinner dates, i just prefer something more private, like maybe home-cooked food & a picnic by the lake? ahahah i'm so mengada.

#4 independent baybeeeeey!
alright, i figured that i can be pretty much dependent, so i suppose my significant other should be independent. it's sort of like that enzyme rule, it's something like the lock & key concept? my significant other should complement my personality right? besides, independent people like to look after dependent people, & i like being taken care of heeehee.

#5 artistic & smart
artistic guys are just cool lah okay? especially those who can play musical instruments, thy're simply seronok & best & fun ;D but then smart guys are cool too, they can teach me things heheh. but the perfect lover would be artistic and smart. okay? okay. awesome.

#6 animal lover?
ahahah. i looooooooooooooooooooooooooooooove cats. enough said ((:

#7 cool, calm & collected perhaps?
okay, i'm gl kabut lah okay, there's no doubt abt that. messy & gl bersepah everywhr. so, this is another lock & key sort of thing? okayy that's 7, one more to goo wheee!

#8 honestly, i have no idea.
okay, face it lah, there's no perfect lover in this planet lah okay, a perfect lover is like an ideal gas. it simply doesn't exist. so, i suppose the flaws make a particular someone the perfect lover. okay i'm blabbering crap, but you get what i mean, right? (it's okay if you don't haha)

maybe i just don't know how to put a perfect lover in words? hahah whatever.
until the next post,
toodles!

the moment comes get lost & go far.

at first, i wanted to blog about the dinner i had with joyce and aeisyah last monday, but then i couldn't upload the photos taken. so, i'll update on that later (i will do it jo, and i will do it before next year, keke).
i'm having my term break right now, and it's already the 5th day of my so-called holiday. the funny thing is, i'm rarely even home. i'd be out the whole day, and when i'm home at night, i'd be super restless. so yeah, my dirty laundry is still not washed, and my room is in a complete mess; with bags and clothes strewn everywhere. i haven't touched my homework one bit, and i haven't started on physics. thank goodness i got excused from the sunway lagoon trip today; i have a physics test next tuesday, and simply said, i have no friggin idea what physics is all about. i suck at physics (& yes, you're hearing hearing this from a geophysicist-to-be, & i'm not lying). yan was supposed to come over and teach me the unknowns today, but she had to go get herself a laptop. and so, there you go, no idea, no teacher; i'm a dead meat. & that isn't even the best part yet.
this is:

as i'm typing this blog,
my head is as heavy as hell;
I'M having a friggin FEVER
& my throat is so effing sore
this is, undeniably, some effing shite.

oh yeah people, life's wonderful. ahahahah, when i read this in 10 years time, i'll probably be laughing my head off, tergolek-golek atas lantai.
oooh, i just discovered this band called mae (heehee gl kecoh), and i love them loads.

mae@purevolume

check 'em out!

alrighty, i've got a room to clean, and homework to do, so i'll update more later! until then, enjoy your doughnuts, taaaaa :)

the some things we care about.

You've left me with such a silent world,
Where evenings are calm, but I'm restless
And my breath has become as thin as the wind.

Not even the mighty sky could fill the space you left behind
Not even when it rains.
No, nothing takes your place
Your emptiness too great to fill.

I have been holding my breath,
For too many nights in a row,
And somewhere on coastlines unknown to me
You paint your dreams,
With reds and blues and greens.
Yea you're painting daffodils by the sea,
Without me.

Today in a breeze I sensed your perfume
But you were nowhere near.
And in reverie,
I felt you holding me.
And even in my dreams I shake from the fear
Of truth being swept away
By the rhythm of the waves I whisper in your ears.

I have been holding my breath,
For too many nights in a row,
And somewhere on coastlines unknown to me
You paint your dreams,
With reds and blues and greens.
Yea you're painting daffodils by the sea,
Without me.

I would give away
The sweetest memories,
If I could just be with you again.
Be with you again.

Last night I dreamt you were with me,
Finally I could breathe.

pollen & salt
daphne loves derby

i thought i'd write something long & clever, but i guess my emotions got the better of me.

i'd like to hire a plane & see you in the morning.

hello there blog. heheh. haven't been updating for a while, been busy doing just about everything else except blogging. i just read dyra's blog and she already has 18 posts, i only have 4, which makes me malaser than her; well babe, you're not malas ok, it's just the hubungan relatif kind of thing, you know me heheh. anyways, my 5th week in kdu went on just find, and the dance practice has started already, i love it! i'm not participating though, i just know that i'll make a total fool of myself. it's just too bad that i don't have mama's dancing abilities :(
okay. classes were about the same, but i think i'm picking up faster these days. okay, maybe i am picking up just about 0.00001% faster than usual but then that's better than nothing right? most of the time though, i wish i have the guys' brains because they are so friggin smart it's almost illegal. sometimes i feel like jumping off a 10 storey building when i think of how smart they are (gile hiperbola ahahah). i want 9 brains tooo, please please please pretty please with ice cream and cherries on top? sighh.
alrighty, the weekly updates, hahah paling weekly, mcm monthly je. i had a date with my beloved joyce on sunday, which was an enormous fun! jo, i rindu lah naik kereta dgn you heheh. she dyed her hair! i'm proud to have known that i'm the first person to see the new colour of her hair, hehe, i know you love me lah joo, don't deny it, you so friggin do :D
nothing happened on monday besides the dance practice, so yeah, it was a pretty boring day. tuesday was terribly packed, as usual, I HATE TUESDAYS. anyhow, i went out with izzat on tuesday night for dinner. the best part is the fact that i didn't have to pay for anything :D oops, sorry, the best part is *supposed* to be meeting him la. heheh, thank you for the dinner la andy bedandy, nnt next time i belanje you pulak okay? ( i know, i know, i still owe you a lunch :p) it was a lot of fun. it would have been funner though if joyce could have joined us. oooh, the taste of old times is always so good heheh.
and thennnnnn, came wednesday, where amy azhar, for the first time ever, worked out at the gym of pelangi utama. i deserve a round of applause okay, it was not easy to drag my very, very unfit body to do exercises. ohmygod i'm such a pig of pemalas. hahah. after class, i went to ou to see emy, & my oh my, she's a whole lot thinner than she used to be! like, literally, a whole friggin lot thinner. and she told me that she doesn't eat nowadays, which scared me (& it scares me still), because i couldn't imagine not eating . yeah, i eat okay, & i eat a lot. simply put, i live to eat. & i'm flabby and stuff and i do want to be thinner, but i cannot not eat. that will drive me insane sampai tahap taknak kalah punye laaa. after i had my lunch (kakak ate ice kacang je, and mcm tk makan langsung pun), we went around ou to look for a going away present for her boyfriend. i have to admit, finding clothes for guys is an uber hard thing to do. there's always something wrong with the baju, either the pattern is too gay, or the cutting is ugly, whatever it is, there's always something. in the end, we settled with a short sleeved camel active shirt and a t-shirt of the same brand, since kakak wanted the t-shirt & jacket concept for her boyfriend.
thursday was another ordinary day too, so besides trying to keep my eyes open in classes, i have nothing to blog about. on friday, which was just a few hours ago, i went to the salon for a trim, so now my hair is shorter :( and then, i saw a very, very, very adorable guy at section 9 today, & god help me, he's just beyond swoooooooon :) i really love the ragged jeans, white tees and sneakers look, it makes a guy look so down-to-earth & warm & cuddly & perfect hahah. he drives a mini too, which makes him even more adorable heehee. and his t-shirt reads "just available". ahahah i'm just too obsessed. i'm going to go for a jog on sunday morning to look for his car, and his house too heheh. okay, ewh, gatal gl. but then abang said it's okay to be attracted to someone, so if anything, abang, you're to blame okay? i just hope that he lives in section 13 :p
alrighty i think that's about it for now, i'm already quite sleepy, and harry potter is to be released in a few hours, so i gotta fuel up energy to be excited heheh. i can't wait to read the final book! i'll blog again later then, cheerios!

i solemnly swear that i am up to no good.

who wants to spin the wheel?

alrightttty, next post coming right up! now is the time to blog about life in kdu. hehehh. okay, i went to kdu on june 15th, which was a friday for the registration and found out that only 5 out of the merely 30 sponsored students are girls. now that is what you call little. we were briefed, and briefed, and *briefed* about the sponsorship and the rules etc (you know, the boring speeches & explanations & reminders whatsoever, which i cannot remember at this moment). after a glimpse of my new house in pelangi utama, and a little setting up here and there, i went home for the weekend.
on monday, my housemates and i, and other pelangi utamarians, took the shuttle bus to kdu. we were briefed (i know, ulang lagenggggg hahah) on our academic workings. basically, it was about how many subjects we have to take and a simple explanation on how gce a level works. later on, (this is where i finally woke up heheh) we were told that we are all to join the malay cultural society and plan an event called "Malam Kebudayaan Melayu". ohhhhkay. more about that later i guess, because right now i'm lazy to elaborate heheh.
the classes were okay. alright. not that okay. apparently my brain has been hibernating for so long that it is seriously berkarat. therefore, i didn't understand a lot of things. but but butttt, izyan has always been there to explain those things to me, so thanks yan! i figured that i need to work harder than the rest of the scholars, so amy, start digging those non-fiction books!
i feel like this is a very very short post & it is prolly only about 1.2397876% of all that happened this week, but *again* i'm just so lazy haha, and i'm going to jump to the conclusion.
all in all, everything has been great, i'm always so excited and i couldn't wait for the next day because i know that something would always happen. i love starting new :)
oh yeah, this is going to be one hell of an interesting chapter of my life. & i love love love knowing that (:

spoiled city brats.

okay. i'm not going to repeat the part where i state *for the millionth time* of my laziness to blog. because i really am extremely lazy, period. hahahh. but anyhow, i have a lot to blog about now :) please do keep on reading and i'll give you 10 purple crayons hee.
okay so i started college earlier this week, but that's going to come in the next post, only briefly, it was a whole lot of fun, and i love it loads. i came home on friday (well mommy dearest wants me home every weekend, i know you miss me mama heheh) and on saturday i got the chance to see dyra, which was fantafantafantabulous. i miss her a whole lot, and even though we communicate every now and then, it was just not the same as talking in flesh existence. okay, now that sentence is weird, but whatever. i love how we can be hundreds of miles apart and still be able to speak the same language, ahahah, amy and dyra, the spoiled city brats.
we talked about practically everything, from kdu to kmm and the people of both places heheh. she left kmm for good (& i am very very happy that she did, apparently spoiled city brats can't live in londang :p) and will be starting her uitm shah alam days on the 30th. well what do you know, once a shah alamian, never anything else, kan dyra kannn? and bestfriend, it's awesome that you're home, now we can see each other more often hehehh.
NADIRA IZHAR, you rock lahhh bestfriend :D teehee.

goodbyes, farewells and whatever other terms that people use.

okay i know this is only my second post. and i know that i've been such a lazy ass for not writing (or in this case, typing) here for like, i don't know, 3 weeks? god, i am a friggin lazy ass. right. it has been 6 months now, since i left school. it has been, well, overall, pretty much like a roller coaster ride. but since when is life not one, right?
i spent these past six months hanging out with my friends, throwing gatherings, attending interviews, and well, being extremely impatient to start college life. however, now that college life is near, i'm not so sure about being impatient.
it's probably because my closest friends are leaving. ahead of me, without me. they are starting their new chapter, in matriks, starting today (well it is 19 minutes past midnight). really, in times like these, memories just flash through your mind, like an unstoppable film. i looked at the pictures of my friends and i, and i felt happy, sad, excited, unaccomplished, satisfaction and lonely. and at the same time, i feel some sort of regret, for taking their existence for granted, for not treating them any better, or at times, for pushing some of them away. hahah, talk about what goodbyes are capable of.
but anyhow, my friends, especially my good friends, have been great. they've been with me throughout my roller coaster ride, gave me uncountable good laughs, provided me with support, and most of all, they made me feel belonged. so friends, thank you. all of you have made me an awesome memory, that i will forever cherish. i wish you all the very best of the best of luck, and i know, that in time, we will meet again, but until then, have the time of your life, and oh, don't ever, ever, forget me :)

pretty pretty april.

my first post here! but i have to say, this isn't my first attempt (more like the tenth) of starting a decent blog. i've been switching from one website to another, so hopefully my lazy fingers will start typing faithfully for this blog. april is ending, with about a week left in the calendar. compared to the first three months of my holidays (heeee) i have to say that april has been quite happening, thank god! i can't really recall of everything that happened, but i've put together bits and pieces of my avril so hopefully your mouse is kind enough to scroll down...

10th-12th April

educamp! i was surprised that i was selected, but nonetheless, i feel very, very grateful. perhaps it was because of the course that i chose? i didn't know other girls who applied for geophysics apart from ira and liyana. anyhow, the three days i spent in utp was fun, fun, fun. although i did feel intimidated at times, judging by the number of the brilliant people around me, but i think i managed to blend in quite fine.
i went to teronoh on the 10th (can you imagine having to wake up at 3.30? thanks for the brilliant idea, ayah) and arrived there at about 8 a.m. i bumped into farihin while registering, ahahh, reunion. she looked great! my roommate, nina (she is a very, very nice girl) and i faced a few difficulties with our room where the lock just wouldn't work and we were transferred from one room to another. at last, the administrator found us a room with a decent lock, unfortunate for us that it's on the 5th floor. we were the first ones to arrive and were among the last ones to get a room. however, the rest of the day were good, with a modest opening ceremony and ice breaking activities.
on the 11th, we attended the career talk, where chubby and i practically slept through (air-conditioned hall isn't a good venue for talks, trust me). i did listen to mr damla, though, as he explained the oh-so-interesting life of being a geophysicist. i thought my heart dropped when i saw the slides that he prepared for the talk. i didn't know much about geophysics, but i expected more of a downstream work. but what's done is done. if it just so happen that the world decides to be kind to me and grant me the scholarship, i guess i'll just have to bear with the course. that evening, abang drove chubby and i to the pasar malam (thanks for being such a good babysitter, abang, i know you love me! ngahaha) and biaselah, rambang mata, semua nak beli. we had apam balik, murtabak and roti john for dinner, which was such a bliss! at about 8 p.m we took the bus from our hostel to some hall somewhere (i think they call it block b or something) for the tests, ape entah, something to do with verbal and images. the tests were pretty hard, and yes, i did bad. hahah but ape ape lahh.
the assessment day was on the 13th. i woke up really early to meet izwan at the cafe, he's still about as tall as i am, heehee. he was blabbering about how unprepared chubby and i are for the interview which practically slapped me on the face. hahah, he was right though, i was really clueless and did not prepare any facts for the interview that was about to occur in a few hours.
the interview went quite fine. fortunately for my group members, our panel was said to be one of the nicer ones. the groups in our session were given the task to discuss about the traffic flow in malaysia. the other 4 members in my group had a lot to point out, so i tried to slide in as much as possible. and tadaaaa, before i knew it, my educamp days were over. abang drove chubby and i around utp for a bit before sending us back to our hostel in village 2 to pack up our things. chubby's parents arrived at about 4 p.m to pick us up and i laid my feet on the floor of my home sweet home at about 9 p.m.

16th April
the mara interview, was well, very interview-ish. mama was really determined to prove that universiti kl is situated right next to maju junction that i was late for the registration (luckily, i'm not the only one). there is not much to tell, the place was swamped with asramians with outstanding academic and co-curricular records. they didn't talk much either, except for this one girl that i sat next to while waiting for my interview session, and this guy from ira's group at the educamp.
i took a taxi to jalan tuanku abdul rahman (or was it tun razak? tempat yang banyak kedai kain tu) after the interview to join mama, cik, tok we and ayah zi for lunch. i tailed them around after that, masuk one kedai kain after another, sakit kaki gile because i was wearing heels. and then balik rumahhh, thank goodness, if i had to masuk another kedai kain, i would have turn cranky.

20th April
oooooh the class gathering! it was fun, fun, fun! only about half the class, or maybe tak sampai pun yang datang but it was better than duduk rumah doing nothing. joyce, aeisyah and chubby came early to help me with the preparation, kemas rumah and all. the gathering started at 3 something. kaamini and pei yee were the first to arrive, followed by yan, shaki and am. fateen, izzati, insyirah and ain came a bit late, uzair, izreen and a few other people, mad, haziq and edzmir were the last to arrive. we didn't do anything much besides watching material girls and eating (the menu was mihun goreng and agar-agar prepared by mommy dearest, thanks ma!). i really like the air hee heee, it was aeisyah's recipe. took a few pictures here and there, and everybody went home at merely seven.

22nd april
the day started really early, as it was ayah's birthday. we surprised him with a cake and pressies at 12 midnight. after getting some zzzzzzzz, i woke up for breakfast and went to sg buloh for gardening supplies. had lunch, went home and then went out again to send nenek to her friend's house. cik and family came for a visit, so we went out for dinner. yeah okay now my fingers are starting to get lazy ahahahhaha.

alrighteo. it's the 23rd today and so far, i haven't done anything besides sleeping, eating and this. maybe i'll type again tonight? hahahh, maybe. okay then cheeriossss (: